Under Construction

I think what they’ve been always said about night is true. It’s so calm. It’s a soothing feeling what I have inside. It’s pure me now. No lies. No masks. But but but, here is the real deal; it is how to interpret this feeling with words because after all, we are not just random thoughts without pen but words that waiting to be expressed. We are words. Never forget that. #notetomyself. However I know that it will all be gone, this peaceful feeling, when the morning comes. Feelings come and feelings go. It’s all part of the process. Otherwise there would be no sonnets written for love. There would be no love stories. But I must say that I am not searching for answers or I am not looking for the truth. Not at all because I know that the truth is me and you. I am just talking through pages because it’s all what I have learnt to do. I sometimes think that It’s crazy to believe in silly things. That’s why I will be around for a while sitting at the base of my mountain. Until my hope rise and make a peace tower. #yokoonospirit #godblessusall

An Ordinary Day

I think it all started with Adam and Eve. How this fruit become the curse for all of us. Every morning when I wake up from this nightmare I wish it to come to an end but I think there is no end to it. Now I don’t want to be sound like rebellious but Jesus Christ, it hurts. The things I see in my dreams makes me feel like a charachter in Jack London’s books. I change only in my dreams. In day time it’s always me, Daddy’s doughter.

 

The Power of Knowing

Sometimes, I feel like Constantine, who is able to cast out demons and free the spirits of people because those times I feel the power of God in me. This power is coming from Knowing His Virtue. But I want to emphisize the power of “Knowing” in every act of our daily life. Knowing doesn’t allow voices to see my next move or at least the details of my actions. Like the Nike advertisement “Just Do It” means a lot to me. That’s how they can’t use my lazyness against me to make me frustrated and I can be able to win and be ahead of them all the time but it’s not easy as it sounds because human nature tends to find excuses all the time such as going to the gym. It feels like so hard sometimes but when we once go, we feel empowered. There are loads of examples like this.

After I find God, I decided not to talk with my friends anymore because they are all drug addicts or doesn’t believe in God like I do. They wouldn’t understand me. However, there is this one girl who is so into God and clean. She always talks about the inspration that God gives to her etc. I always wanted to write to her but I couldn’t be so sure and I was really alone. After a month later, I heard that she moved away to study Fashion Design but luckly she wrote me about visiting me for couple of days and wanted to see me. I was so thrilled about the news and when we met I explained her everything and she huged me and said “I knew you were like me” and we decided to never leave each other. In the future, we will be visiting each other regularlarly. =)

 

 

Simple Prayer

Our Holly Father in Heaven,

Let this be a prayer from depths of my heart for you to hear me. I have weaknesses that only you can see. From childhood to today, they can be placed themselves in the secret rooms of my subconscious mind. Clean them all. Clean my path to you. Destroy eveything that blocks me to see your graceful face. Do not let my faith crushed under this insane history of the world, mad leaders and mundanity of daily life. Let my emotions flow with your Holly Grace.

I know that I have limitations but I also know that You are limitless and capable of doing anything beyond our imagination. Bless me with this belief and eliminate everything that can cause me to fall into desperation. And when the devil comes, give me strength to detect it’s temptation and save my soul.

Your Beloved Doughter

With Love ❤